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Tuesday, February 02, 2021

Drew Robinson’s Remarkable Second Act (Trigger Warning: Suicide)

ON APRIL 16, 2020, Drew Robinson woke up, spread peanut butter on a cinnamon-raisin bagel, pulsed a green smoothie, sat at his kitchen table and finished writing a note that would explain to his family and friends why he had decided to end his life. He had spent the past month alone in his house, confined by the pandemic and quarantined in his own mind. He hated his life. He hated that no one knew how much he hated his life.

“I hope eventually that you guys will realize that no one could’ve seen this coming to prevent it because of how hard I try to hide it,” he wrote, “and that it’s no one else’s fault.”
He knows that sometimes life is like a vise, unrelenting, cranking tighter and tighter. He knows how crippling that can be. He knows that there is a burgeoning mental health crisis in this country, that the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention reported that 11% of American adults surveyed in June considered suicide, that suicidal ideation among 18- to 24-year-olds was at 26%. He knows this is difficult to talk about. He knows it’s even more difficult to suffer through. He knows because he lived it.
“I look at this thing and think, I’m stronger than you,” he says. “I’m stronger than what I thought I was.”

If you or someone you know is having thoughts of suicide or is in emotional distress, contact the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK(8255) or at

This is a long and fairly difficult piece to read.  Also well done and I think important. (LINK FIXED, thanks RR)

Jose Is An Absurd Balladeer Posted: February 02, 2021 at 01:47 PM | 6 comment(s) Login to Bookmark
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   1. RoyalsRetro (AG#1F) Posted: February 02, 2021 at 02:04 PM (#6003325)
Link doesn't work, but it is here.
   2. Bourbon Samurai stays in the fight Posted: February 02, 2021 at 03:07 PM (#6003352)
This is a phenomenal story. Bit scary that the guy seems to have done such a total 180 in a such a short time, but will certainly be rooting for him. It would be incredible if he could play at a high level in this state, but could certainly have a future as a coach if he can keep himself together
   3. jacksone (AKA It's OK...) Posted: February 02, 2021 at 07:01 PM (#6003400)
I am continuously amazed at what the human body (or really, any life form) can endure. The fact that he is alive is so incredible, it's just really hard to comprehend. I hope he keeps going down this new path and finds a good life for himself. And I hope he can inspire others to seek help if they need it - before they do something so incredibly destructive.
   4. Never Give an Inge (Dave) Posted: February 02, 2021 at 07:52 PM (#6003412)
Yeah, to echo what others have said, this is a good and important story to read.

I hope Drew lives a long and fulfilling life, regardless of whether he ever makes it back on a baseball field.
   5. Gold Star - just Gold Star Posted: February 03, 2021 at 12:39 AM (#6003464)
There's a story about one of the few people to survive jumping off the Golden Gate Bridge.

Supposedly, he vaulted the rail and, in the split-second of no return, thought to himself, "All my problems are solvable - except this one."
   6. bunyon Posted: February 03, 2021 at 09:49 AM (#6003491)
Supposedly, he vaulted the rail and, in the split-second of no return, thought to himself, "All my problems are solvable - except this one."

Certainly there are lots of stories of people who face near term probable death and it changes their life in a possible way when they survive. It's not strange, I guess, that surviving a suicide attempt could work that way.

It's an incredible story and, like others, I wish him the best. One step at a time for him.

It's not the important angle but, I played legion ball with a guy who only had one eye and I always wondered how he was able to do it. He hit really well and I never put it together that, at the distance the ball is from the bat, the lack of depth perception isn't that important. Even fielding, the ball closes so fast, you can't really use near vision to home in on it.

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